Disease gives courage. Stage 3

I am very grateful to all the people who help me morally, spiritually, materially and physically to keep on to this life. Not to give up, even though my illness does not leave me many chances for joy. Thanks to raised funds i had gone through two courses of chemotherapy, and before there were four. Six courses altogether. In November 2014 the CT scan showed that the growth of metastases, not only stopped, but even some of the fines generally disappeared. But, apparently, not for long…

When metastases disappeared – everybody rejoiced! Especially my doctor. The long-awaited remission came. Its like a three months vacation. After that another CT scan – and all's good again! Vacation from the chemicals again, because the body needs to rest from this fight with the struggle with the insidious disease.

I did not think about it. I lived a full life. I grew flowers, seedlings, got small kittens and get pleasure from communication with flora and fauna!

I believed in the best!

I believed in luck! And hopes are the hoops that do not allow the heart to burst!

Half a year passed. A CT again. This time i was not so lucky. Metastases have grown everywhere, even in muscles. As if I would be avenged for the happiness! This is not real. In the beginning you feel a pity for yourself. You want to hide away and cry so that no one would see your weakness and fear. But my doctor saw me and asked:

- You now feel that no one feels worse than you do?

- Yes, it feels so!

- And i say – there are many of those, whose situation is worse, but they still hope!

The will to live is stronger than death!

We form our reality by ourselves: the difference between fear and hope is the difference between the weakness and the healing. If you believe in yourself more than in your illness, you can fight even the serious illnesses!

I am not alone in my struggle for life. All of you are with me, relatives, friends, strangers, people i know! And my doctor – the chemotherapist. I have always been lucky to meet good people!

Their belief, your belief in that God is the absolute health, and his health is my health! God is love, and his love fills my soul.

Now the challenge is accepted! The chemotherapy is planned in three weeks, to suspend the furious growth of metastases of sarcoma. And then – following the situation and the way i will feel. Morally i am ready to go forward!

My life is in your hands again! And since i am no longer able to ensure the treatment, I ask for your help! Without it i will lose in my struggle for life. I am not losing hope and the belief in success gives a possibility to healing!

I believe in you and in myself! But God decides!

Name: Liudmila M. Vershygorova, 15/07/1959

Location: Kyiv

Diagnosis: leyomio-Sa uterine st.I T1N0M0 (since 2009), the continuation of diseases: Mts in retroperitoneal nodes, lungs, secondary pain kl.gr.II