Disease gives courage. Stage 5

If i had read the story of my illness before, when I lived in the world of healthy people, i would have changed a lot in myself, in my attitude towards people, towards thoughts of myself, life, towards offenses, religion and soul. So now i am 56 years old, whereas i got ill at the age of 50. The diagnosis sounded like a sentence, like a thunder in a clear sky - uterine cancer! Urgent surgery. Removal. Two years passed and there came 2012. Winter. Pain in the shoulder, then under the shoulder blade. Very strong. It felt like something was going to tear off if i breathe in or out.

The diagnosis- lungs sarcoma of 4th level. The tumor is the size of all the right lung. Black stain. And four small metastasis in the left lung. Four years have passed and my fight for life has been going on! Life is a long goodbye! That is why i decided to live at full. Alive so far! Only with your help! I believe in you and put my hope in you! And i am grateful from all my heart! Love life and be healthy!

I studied my illness and learned that 70% of women get the lungs' cancer after the uterine cancer, but nobody takks about that openly. In the spring of 2012 I received a call from a professor of one of hospitals of Kiev: "I think the surgery is possible!" He gave me 3% chances, but that was a chance anyway. I agreed. The surgery went through successfully. The tumor of 1,5 kg of weight was removed. Then a second surgery in three months. On a left lung - laparoscopic burning of metastasis. Until this time the metastasis do not grow in the left lung. However, there grew the new ones in the right lung. Surgery again! It is very difficult both physically, psychologically and financially. But! I am alive! Only on the stage of surgeries i took my life into my own hands! It's my life! I want to decide on my own and listen to advices from those people i respect! Then the period of surgeries was over. Metastasis grew very fast. Too fast for surgeries. And then one day doctors sent me home to get ready for dying. They said 1-2 months maximum. Get ready. I had oncologic pains, i had drugs, a hospice. I was ready! I knew a lot about death and i was not afraid of it. Then i was released of pain and i was suggested to try palliative chemotherapy. It means delaying the time of departure to the other world. And just live for today. In constant pain pills. I am an optimist and creepy sober realist!
God has been sending me great doctors. And i am grateful to Him for that! For two straight years i have been on this chemotherapy, which is quite expensive. Also my family and friends who have been helping me to keep gathering money for it all this time have been worn out quite a bit. That is why now i am getting help for the chemotherapy from the people i don't even know, but i am feeling their love and wishes for me to survive! Thank All very much!
I have remissions, i have a rapid growth of metastasis everywhere. It is easier to say where they are not, compared to where they have grown to. I don't even want to know that. It cut me down psychologically. I am sure that i will live on and that's it! Of course i can cry time after time, but not for long. I sm not an iron lady anyways. I am just strong. I think this illness was sent to me for spiritual growth. It has changed me a lot. Other people do not have power over us - all the power - the Spirit is inside of us! I say life and not death!
Recently I have received another chemotherapy, after the 4 months break. In the last week i have been feeling the growth of metastasis. I've been feeling worse. I am not even getting prescribed the CT, the ultrasound or the x-ray. It is obvious that metastasis have gone on growing. What's the difference how many millimeters or where exactly they have grown. I know it by pain. But i am ready to fight for as long it is necessary. And to believe! And give faith! By my example. And keep being thankful to everyone! Now it's a difficult time in our country, but the worse it is, the more i want to live! To see my motherland prosperous and rich, and peaceful! So that young soldiers and young children would not be dying! I want to see my grandchildren grown and healthy! And for that, I ask you, - Help me live!

Full name: Vershigorova Lyudmila Nikolaevna

City: Kiev

Diagnosis: Leiomyomas of the uterus body-Sa st.i T1N0M0 (since 2009), a continuation of the disease: Mts in retroperitoneal nodes, lungs, secondary pain syndrome kl.gr.II